here we go then. Day #1 of my records.
Not a morning person lately. But still I had to wake up early this day, so that there's plenty of time to study for my Undang. There I was, up at 8.00 in the morning with the mood of a grizzly bear that just stepped on a thorn. Luckily there wasn't anyone around for me to rawr at; my parents have gone to work.
First thing I did was to power up this hunk of metal. And then started to game. Yea I knew I've got an important exam six hours away (seems like a lot, but not when it comes to gaming) but *shrug I gotta placate the grizzly, ya know?
Thats pretty much how I am now during this period of holidays. I just won't stop making excuses for myself for lousy actions and decisions . But more on that some other day. (LOL)
*fast-forward 1 1/2 hours*
50/50. Life is just so weird sometimes. But anyway, after the test I was standing with another guy and girl who came with me together, brought by this balding driving instructor. So we started to talk. I'm glad they're friendly (because unfriendly people make me unfriendly) although in a way, we were all...acquaintances, just because we were all crammed into one small Kancil for a 1-hour-long drive. During the talk I learnt that the girl failed the test. Jeez. So I was standing there hiding my test result paper and praying that she won't ask how much I scored. But besides that, we just chatted freely, talking about stuff like driving, experiences with driving, what our strategy was for the test, tips on how to score for the test ( for the girls' benefit)... It's nice. They're nice people. The girl was really depressed because it's also the second time she failed (imagine my horror) so me and the other guy tried to cheer her up and all, gave her encouragements, advice, words of comfort. Guess who tried the hardest.
But the thing that started me thinking was this: I wish more people are like that, not conservative on conversation. I mean, the shy people will be shy, and the quiet people will be quiet, but I'm talking about the people who just don't talk to strangers at all, just for the mere fact that its a stranger. The people who are purposely unfriendly and cold. With the community as a whole.
Take a look at this. A sea of people. Millions of lives brushing past each other every second. Not a word exchanged. All probably looking at their shoes and wondering if their boss is happy with their work while they walk. What I'm saying is, we tend to get too obsessed with our individual lives that we forget we live in a world filled with people. Of course we do interact with members of the society, but its a bit limited to your field of work isn't it?
So I personally feel that (from a christians' point of view) if one wants to change lives, one has to touch them first. We all need to reach out to everyone, everywhere, everytime. Do stuff with people. Unity. I also feel that it is more of a problem in Asian countries than in the West. Example: Flash mobs. There's more in the U.S. than in Tokyo. (Imagine that! Flash Mob in Tokyo. Businessmen waving their suitcases..)
Oh and here's a video which I find very inspiring. It was over facebook for a while.
WATCH IT!
:D
Ffshuhh. Well moving on with the day. (no, i'm not done yet) back to the three-acquainted-strangers. I offered the two of them a ride back so my mom came and fetched us all back, and the minute the two of them were out of the car I was like HAH! 50/50 MAN! WHO DA BOMB? WHO DA BOMB??
Of course, all that was said in my head. What I told my mom was "I got full marks". My mom was pleased but trust her to turn it on me by saying "So if driving can get full marks, your SAT can also get full marks too." Save your wishes, mom, they aint coming true.
Anyway. there's another issue I encountered that day that I wanna blog about.
Saw this video on facebook.
Gordon Ramsey eating Shark Fin Soup for the first time.
After I watched that, I was very much disturbed. Not beacuse it was bad, about how the sharks are getting extinct, about how the sharks were brutally mutilated and thrown back to the sea, about how many people don't care no I wasn't disturbed because of that. I knew all that. The video was just like a refresh button.
What disturbed me was, along with the refreshing of information about the sharks, there's also a refreshing of memories. And it was a memory of me eating shark fin soup.
Just a month ago.
During prom. They served that. I remember my friend sitting next to me taking a second bowl. I remember me considering the bowl for about three seconds, then tucked in. Not so much as a brief thought of the sharks. Now, thinking back, I got sick of myself. I knew what comes with that bowl. What i was putting into my mouth. And the million of times I've heard that the sharks are dying, the sharks are dying, all because of one stupid dish. I felt truly ashamed of myself for all this.
You know, how you always hear from a source that something is bad, and it is proven, and you believe it, you commit yourself to go against it? And how many times do you catch yourself doing it over and over again?
And then there's the peer pressure. The risk of breaking the mould, going against the status quo. I remember while I was being served that shark fin soup, there's a tiny voice in my head whispering "I shouldnt eat this." Just one tiny tiny voice. Heck maybe I am even imagining that I even heard a tiny voice. this sucks. But if there was a tiny voice, I pushed it away, because there was definitely a louder one saying: "Don't cause trouble; and everyone else is eating it."
I think its time to really watch what we're really doing. Its time we decide on what we will do, to make the world the sorta place we want to live in. And I think resolving to never touching another bowl of shark fin soup is my #1.
Screw peer pressure.
Well. It was a pretty thought-provoking day. For me at least. :P
But there we go. January 20th, 2012.
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